Wednesday, October 15, 2008
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Once I closed the door behind me and made sure no one sees, tears start rolling down my cheek. How could a single text message give me such a big impact? Its like, the total opposite of "hey! you made my day!". Honestly, it flipped me upside down, turned me inside out. I tried so hard to smile, but I couldn't help thinking how fake that smile of mine is gonna appear on my face.
I'm pretty sure you won't read this, but this is what I really feel. Just when I needed you the most, just when I needed protection and don't know who to go to, I thought of you. Wishing/hoping/praying so hard that you'll appear right in front of me in whichever hero suit, coming to my rescue. Of course, it didn't happen, I'll just say its my imagination. Worse still, you told me you're disappointed. Ya huh, then what bout' me dude? Do you even know whats going on on my side? No, hell no, you don't. Right now, I'm not even sure if I'm supposed to feel angry, sad or nothing at all. How I wish, you can just pack your stuff and leave my mind. 'Cos I don't wanna think about it no more, I don't wanna run through what you've said, no, not again.
Tonight I'm falling
and I can't get up.