Monday, June 29, 2009
♥ Blameworthy
It upsets me to see Papa looking out through the window with a cigarette in hand - an indication that he's troubled. Later on when I found out with my ways, that it was actually due to some financial problems my fam is currently facing. I know Papa is worried, since he's the sole bread-winner. The reason for my heart and mind being in a mess was because of guilt. Guilt, washed through me as I thought about yesterday, when Papa told me off for spending so much on a dance concert ticket. Prolly he didn't feel the passion I have for dance, but no, I ain't blaming him. It was just guilt... What kind of daughter am I, spending money so uneconomically when Papa already is going through such a difficult time? Oh dang, shoot me.Hold up. 28 dollars for a dance concert ticket may seem affordable for most. Well I'll just say, it's different.
Friday, June 26, 2009
♥ It's my own uncertainty
After considering throughly, I came to a decision to go to The Big Groove 2009. *big wide smiley grin from ear to ear* :D Hahaha. Fact is, I so wanted to go for the greatest exception of the dear price. I missed the early bird promotion so I gotta purchase my ticket at $25. Good for me that Mr Ben's gonna get one ticket for me :D Thank you Mr Ben! :D Heh. Can't wait for the concert on Sunday. Gonna go with Jasmine~~ We must camwhore okay. Heeheeheeheee :p
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Ran to my heart's content @ Bedok Reservoir again. I don't know why, but when it comes to distress, running's my best and favorite way. Girlfriends know that I don't really like to say things out, I prefer keeping it inside, though it's pretty unhealthy huh. I don't like to repeat things over, let alone telling my close friends what's wrong and thus going through that same sick feeling again. Furthermore, I don't wanna add on load to the invisible burden that people may already have. Right at the end of the line, I'll still have to clear my own obstacles.
Conclusion is, I will be fine. I will stay strong and fight my way through uphill battles. And it is because I know you'll be there for me, I'll be brave too :)
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
♥ Rainy days please go away . . .
Gimme hope, please?
Name: Hauyan
Date: 6/24/2009
Colorgenics Number: 31452067
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You are striving for a life full of activity and experience and, perhaps even more, an environment where you would be able to forge a close bond with a person who can offer full emotional fulfilment.
You are very talented, imaginative and sensitive but you are holding back as you do not really like going it 'on your own'. In preference you would like to team up with someone, someone with similar attributes as your own, to explore - to seek out and go perhaps 'where no other man has trod before'. It is the unusual that attracts you and which will give you a sense of excitement and adventure.
You lack confidence and that is a great pity because deep down you are indeed a warm caring person. This lack of confidence is making you wary of being drawn into any open discussion or conflict and so you feel as if you should let matters lie and leave well alone. But there may be a pleasant surprise in store for you. You are beginning to grow and very soon - sooner than you believed possible - this warm loving new you will be available for all to see and to appreciate.
Presently, you are experiencing stress because of restriction on your independence. You need and seek respect from other people and it is essential that they appreciate you for yourself and not for what they would like you to be. You have your own beliefs and convictions and you would like to be respected for them. You are anxious to avail yourself of every opportunity that may come your way but nevertheless, come what may, you have the need to control your own destiny without imposed limitations or restrictions.
You don't like authority and you rebel against all forms of limitation. You are your own person and you intend to stay that way and to get on in the world simply by your hard work and determination.
I'm doing this quiz qgain 'cos there's this feeling all cramped up inside me that I can't put into words. Why? I really wanna know. Though I don't have the slightest notion what's happening.
Sunday, June 21, 2009
♥ I'll still run in your mind like I always do :)
Happy Fathers' Day ; I love you Papa :D
Ahhhhhh-choooooo! Dang, I'm down with flu. In addtion to my misery, I gotta wake up 630AM tomorrow as there'll be Design Camp in school. Guess we're all gonna be real busy with artefacts and then our folio. Oh well.. Hopefully all that I planned to do can be finished on time! Wish me luckkkkkkkk :D
Goodnight!
♥ Sugar romance
I've missed Break Out earlier in February and now I'm comtemplating whether to go for this one! It's $38 cheapest, EXCLUDING booking fee. The same amount allows me to purchase about 10 plates of Hainanese Chicken Rice at T3. Did I mention that the Hainanese Chicken Rice there tasted real yummy? I think I didn't. Well, it's a must try! Heh, it's 1AM now and I'm drooling over thinking of the same delicious taste :P
Oh wait. The dates of the show are from 11 to 13 September. Which means...... It's super near the big Os and I doubt I'll have time to spare.. :( Sigh sigh sigh, there goes.
Hmm. The fact that I'm trying so hard to complete my homework is NOT equivalent to doing revision really makes me sick. Finishing up the homework is just something that we all gotta do, while doing revision is another thing. That's what I've realised after three weeks of not-like-holiday holidays. Well, I've not been getting my essential beauty sleep. (Slap myself, I'm still blogging -.-)
Alrights, I shall hit the sack. Till then.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
♥ Sangat lapar!
I'm famished! The extreme hunger is killing me. Sigh, food, come to meeeeeeeeee~~~ Okay, I'm actually waiting for Papa Mama to cook the food. Heh :D well, I shall wait with utmost patience. *stomach grumbles* :O
Yesterday night was a PoruShine cum Programmers outing. Heh, I missed more than half of the outing due to meeting my clumsyhead. Anyway, their plan was to watch Drag Me To Hell. I certainly don't wanna be dragged to hell, so I decided to skip it :D Heeee, okay I just can't take horror movies, but talk about SPI, bring it on mannn! Heh, continue. Went to chill at Suntec Sky Garden while waiting for the movie to end so we could have supper. Soothing wind and no other disturbance, the Sky Garden is sure the perfect place to spend with your love one! :D
Had supper at Old Airport Road and had some laughters with those peeps. Miss them soooo much, right Wendi? :D And I so gotta catch up with my girls! Heh.
Alrights, dinner's ready! *fly off*
Sunday, June 14, 2009
♥ Without you, it's only black and white
Once again, I'm proud of myself! Hahahahaha. Yesterday, I went to study at the airport with Vivian, and I completed two pieces of homework. Today, I proudly announce that I manage to finish Chemistry WS, Emath P2 and Amath revision paper! *Claps for self* (Ignoring the fact that I skipped quite a lot of questions) Oops. Maybe not so proud. Hahhaha :P
Your embrace so warm,
got my heart melted like never before.
Your heart so sincere,
I can feel it a thousand miles away from here.
Your smile so hearty,
it is my all-time favorite galaxy.
Your love so genuine,
keeps my heart beating faster, yet so steady.
& just so you know,
you'd become part of my life, yes you had already.
When the clock strikes twelve..
It'll be our seventh month :D
Friday, June 12, 2009
♥ Babyloveee :D :D
Hahaha! Was playing with the Acer Crystal Eye Webcam :P Mann, I'm so proud of myself for completing the English speech and porposal in two hours! It's unusual for me, since usually I'll be easily distracted. Heh :D
All I gotta say is that I've soent twenty four hours in my life doing nothing too meaningful.
But I must really compliment the food :P
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
♥ Catastrophe
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Hellooooooooooooooo.
A hectic week I had, can't even recall what I did last week already -.- Oh oh oh, now I remember. It was Bv Bazaar last Saturday, and yes! It's also the day I bid my long hair goodbye and welcome my short hair with open arms. Hahhahaha.
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Sunday was spent doing nothing :S :S and here comes Monday, SPxperience and dry run for Nightwalk @ TP. Met my girlfriends on Monday and made our way to SP (somebodyyy was very latee :P). We headed to IMM right after the refreshment and shopped around till 4pm. Ooohh I bought a lovely pink glittered mirror for my sister! I'm such a niceeee sister right! HAHAHHAA.
Afterwhich, I headed to TP for the dry run which lasted for 4 hours. Had many things to plan and organise, and Ling had to brief me on the actual Nightwalk etc. Since it was already 3am when everything ended, I stayed over at Ling's house and went back home early in the morning at aound 8.30am.
Once I arrived home, I'm left with only one hour to:
-Mop the floor
-Fold the clothes
-Pack my bag for Nightwalk/Stayover
-Bathe
-Eat breakfast cum lunch
I was drained out as I dragged myself out of the house again. On a brighter side, I was on my way to meet my love before getting on with all the work :D Though it was just mere two hours of get together after not meeting up for quite some time, I'm thankful enough. Soon after, proceeded to TP and started settling the logistic stuff and prepared for the Nightwalk.
Thoughts & heartfelt words ; Unexpected situations took place, and it was like they all came in a package. I can't deny that my mood was totally dampened when situations like such took place. I felt so useless and good-for-nothing. At times I asked myself, "Why did I agree to take up the role as the I/C? I'm not even up to standard and whatsoever! I should have taken up the role of the 'ghost'...". It sure was a battle in my mind. However, I gotta say that I have gained quite a lot. Seriously. I've learnt to how to use a walkie, I've learnt how to put things into place and I've got a feel of how to run a programme. It was indeed a great opportunity. Thank you CK, Jeremy and also, DaJie, for guiding me through.. :)
Sigh, waking up at 5.30am tomorrow, gotta go SP for a business course experience I think. Oh well, goodnight peeps.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
♥ It comes from the heart :)
My dancers totally made my day today :D I'm so gonna miss going to dance studio; I'll miss the times we messed around before dance starts, and continue with the truckloads of fun after practices; I'll miss running together, our gym sessions; I'll miss doing cheerleading stunts; I'll miss each and every single dancers, not forgetting our two beloved teachers, Ms Ang & Ms jane. After four years in Modern Dance, I've definitely learnt a ton. These memories, will be locked inside my heart :)
Okay, I gotta hit the sack soon. There're still lessons tomorrow - English & Emaths. Oh yes, last thing before I take my leave. I'M GONNA CHOP OFF MY HAIR, SUNDAY! Hahaha, cut it short I mean. So....
Goodbye to my pretty, long, long hair! HAHHAHAA :PGoodnight gems and jewels!
