Monday, June 29, 2009
♥ Blameworthy
It upsets me to see Papa looking out through the window with a cigarette in hand - an indication that he's troubled. Later on when I found out with my ways, that it was actually due to some financial problems my fam is currently facing. I know Papa is worried, since he's the sole bread-winner. The reason for my heart and mind being in a mess was because of guilt. Guilt, washed through me as I thought about yesterday, when Papa told me off for spending so much on a dance concert ticket. Prolly he didn't feel the passion I have for dance, but no, I ain't blaming him. It was just guilt... What kind of daughter am I, spending money so uneconomically when Papa already is going through such a difficult time? Oh dang, shoot me.
Hold up. 28 dollars for a dance concert ticket may seem affordable for most. Well I'll just say, it's different.